Here we go again

I have the feeling I'm about to go on a crazy ride... I don't know what's going on exactly. Right now I'm either:
- too tired to prevent it from happening
- too out of it to know what to think
- thinking too much
- waiting too long
- dreaming
- set on autopilot
- losing it

Things are spiraling to a close, and strangely, out of control. Seven weeks or so left to make something out of this mess. And what a mess it is.

Do I really have time for all this?