Sudden realization: for the normally chill exterior I have, it can get pretty crazy on the inside... it could be that with the stress of finals and all that's going on (and not going on) there's been too little time to let it all balance out and my mind's been going out of whack trying to get back to where I need to be, where I can function. Like my theory about my personal momentum, I'm getting moved in all different directions and I'm not enjoying all of it. I need to find my bearings, my reality is still changing.