It's about time I unplugged. I think the longer I stay on the computer, the more apt I am to check out things I can't afford. It doesn't help that I try to justify it by telling myself I'm doing "research." That sums up the majority of my day. Some relative came over, just in time to stave off my family deprivation--just one relative at Christmas. They don't even live that far away. An hour at most. It's kind of sad that we don't see each other more than 6 times a year.

I've got to remind myself to stop living in the future. There's too much present going on to ignore.

I've been having major problems sleeping lately. I never thought I'd be saying it, but I think I need to get back into my routine, however loosely defined it was. I've only really worked 3 days in almost 2 weeks and debts seem to haunt me still. I really need to get everything paid off, besides the school loans. Those aren't bad at all. It seems like I've been having to deal with most of the responsibilities of being grown up with a lot less of the benefits of being grown up (the ones I'm used to having). Could it be the stress that's not letting me sleep? Maybe I just need some sunlight, a few workouts, some more food, and a little more work and shake out of this rut.

I need to walk again. This is a journey, not a destination.