mellow

What is a edge without something to define?

I'm still looking for that focus.

Work before sunrise tomorrow, and it's just about midnight already. Man, I wish there were enough people around to play football today. My body feels so underutilized. At least my ears got a workout today. I'm so close to buying an mp3 player... and yet don't feel like spending money. I'd rather see it sit in the bank accumulating interest... for the bank of course. Money is a funny thing. It doesn't do much if you don't use it. Hmmm... it's the same way with a lot of things. I should know this.

There's a lot to learn.

Man, timing makes the biggest difference some times. It's coming down to becoming a victim of circumstance or the lucky beneficiary of a wrinkle in time. A land of extremes. This is what I asked for, right? Ah, to have what I do not. That's the gist of desire. Which doesn't coincide with my dreams. Not completely. I'm not focused enough right now. Things are getting contrary and despite being in black and white, I can't make heads or tails out of much anymore.

This afternoon, it had to be in the mid-80s... and then around 4:30 a dense fog descended and the world resembled a winter wonderland again, sans snow/sleet/frost. A truly unpredicatable thing.

Has it come to this already? I'm not one to quit that easily. I'm a fighter. A competitor. The concept of pace flies out the window when you don't have anything left. So I run.

When does this stop?

this is life in fast forward.

At least until I get to work, and things move in slow motion. Time to set some things in motion. Open some things up. Get some sleep... that what I forgot. I need some sleep.

i gots to check the beat...

I'm still worn out from this weekend. I was trying to set up wireless at Scott's house for a few hours and my eyes were ready to shut down. It was nice chillin at Old Spaghetti Factory and laughing about gout. After I got to bed though, I had a hard time pulling my head off the pillow this morning.

I need to feel productive today. So far, all I've done is wake up, eat breakfast, and blog. I gotta knock out some laundry or clean up around the room. It's getting a little ridiculous. I still have business to take care of.

Ok, ok. I've got some motivation.

Let off the brakes, put it in first gear, give it some gas, and ease off the clutch...

Don't stall on me now

Once again, it seems things are in a state of upheaval. I don't know what exactly is going on, but this is a test I haven't had to deal with in the past. All I can do now is pray and have faith.