zombified

I never was able to get back to bed last night. Instead, I took an extended nap from 10:30 am to 2:30 pm. And now I'm a bit out of sorts.

insomniac

I can't sleep. I wonder how many other people are awake right now, staring at their computer screens. Falling asleep on the couch while the tv was on probably was a bad thing. It's definitely an annoyance to be able to fall asleep almost at will 90% of the time, only to fail miserably the other 10%. Plus, it's maybe 80 degrees in this room. I really look forward to being able to slip into nice cool (cold) sheets and never having to throw the sheets off or flip the pillow over. I can feel the heat coming off my back as sit here. As much as I don't want to admit it, I might have to buy a little a/c unit for my room back home just to be able to sleep at night.

It looks like that McCain fellow is trying to win the election by appealing to fear, xenophobia, and greed. That's exactly the kind of leadership we need.

I think I need to take a walk.

stasis

Through there still remains a nagging thought of all the things that may undermine this brand new paradigm, optimism grows best in dark times.

I hope.

I had a dream this morning that I was eating out with some friends, and as we were leaving one of them started giving out long, somewhat awkward hugs to everyone. We all laughed, and someone said, "See you in October." I was confused, so my friend told me he was leaving, and would be back until October, but three years from now. And then everyone started tearing up. It's as if we never saw it coming.

gone till October

After reading an article about the state of healthcare today, and the whole thread of attached comments, I'm at a loss to think of how it can ever be fixed. A good deal of the problem lies in the privatization of health care, where profit comes before well being. I've always wondered why doctors and other health care professionals had to sacrifice so much of their lives and resources to get the education and training, only to be overworked and handicapped by a system that almost forces them to do only what is good enough. In the end, we all pay the price.

antagonist

I guess I've made you the antagonist to my protagonist, although I'm not sure anymore if you make sense in this story

sign of the times

The grass was yellow brown and dead, even disappearing in some spots, leaving nothing but dry earth. The wall stands where the old broken fence used to, closing it in, cutting everything out. The piles of aged newspapers and dated magazines leave hints of a place where time seems to move in contrast to everything else. I haven't been there in too long.

i wish you were still here

mastered the art

At some point, you realize that you can't build up if you don't have a foundation. And despite the economy's downtown, I have several developments I don't plan on shelving, trivial as they may be. Hopefully my economics don't slow me down too much.

Sorry to say, the whole isn't always greater than the sum of its parts. If this is the case, it's probably a good idea to break off a piece and cut your losses.

you can't love someone in your mind
you can only love with your heart

making moves

Yeah right.

I need to get this off the ground.