we

fall

down

trying to connect

This jumble of my life... I can't make anything out of it at the moment. I've been unplugged for a while. There's too much to sort through, only so much I can process. And still, I'm trying to fit more in, just as I try to narrow things down. Put other people in the mix, and this is where the confusion begins. Outside of a small circle, it's all touch-and-go... but I can't read things any better. Mortality has a way of making you ay attention though. I can't ignore what I see anymore. I've gone through the motions enough to be sure that's this is anything but routine, anything but ordinary. This is life.

connection failed

coming home.

It seems like a lot of us came home tonight. There's nothing like a tragedy to bring people together. I'm still a little shell-shocked, being that I just found out about all of this today. All this after last night's mental and emotional storms. After talking to some people I've lost contact with, a whole part of my life seemed to unfold in my memories. I really didn't like high school or junior high, but the bonds I formed with people still mean something to me. Once again I feel a little more grounded. I've still got plenty of loose ends to tie up, and though I feel pulled in many different directions, I wouldn't have it any other way. My world has become a very overwhelming space in a short time.

I really want to do things right. It's worth the effort.

rest in peace ngoc tran

i wish i spoke a little louder sometimes

if only to leave no question
a little reassurance
that there's something to this

it's not getting any easier

spontaneous.

explosion.

only 9 hours before I have to wake up for work.