It took two weeks, about 90 calls, 30 emails, and lots of negotiation to finally replace our fridge. I really hope it works.

Understatement of the year.

Now with that stress off my shoulders, I feel like the ball's rolling. I threw out the bad food (which had to weigh at least 50 pounds... too bad we tried to move the fridge with all that food in it), cleared the sink, and organized some loose wires. Maybe we'll finish unpacking yet.

Why do I end up second guessing myself?

I might try and surprise myself.

John Legend - Once Again

Man, so good.

This is the stuff dreams are made of.

You'd never believe it, but these dreams are far more than the sums of their parts.

They have to be.

the words aren't coming

Maybe I should meet them halfway.

These past few weeks have been a grand exercise in frustration. None of this is healthy. I may need a jump start, because my battery is drained.

entropy

to any parties concerned, it's time to live and to learn
until we're able to grow, forever bridges will burn
my thoughts free as a bird that's just about to emerge
and every action that's heard, it speaks louder than words yo

- Clock With No Hands - The Roots

Even the best laid plans fall apart.

What do you do when you weigh the short term consequences of an action against the long term consequnces and the scale breaks?

A little knowledge is a dangerous thing. And scary. I'm trying to resist the urge to self diagnose, but I don't think your heart is supposed to feel like it's in your stomach.

talk it out

Night and day. Almost.

Once so subtle, the contrast is glaring now.

I hope I get to the point to where what I do makes up for what I don't say.