The winds are kicking up again, and I don't see why I should fight them any longer. When you stand amidst the currents, often you find yourself standing alone. Not this time. Not now.

I'm having trouble keeping pace with the world right now. It's time to stop keeping score. Things are all over the place at the moment, and even if I don't make sense on anything, I'll still have to do something. Does growing up mean you have to make more choices?

My mom left me two voicemails today. The first one said to call her back. The second one went something like this:

"Jay. Check your voicemail. I left a message telling you to call me back."

Consistently inconsistent.

I'm struggling with knowing what I'm good at, and what I need work on. Lately, I think I need to work on everything. Being so average can be frustrating, but when things fall past mediocre, it's downright depressing. I'm going to start bringing my A-game. Period. Failing sucks, but half-assing is worse. In a word, I've got to give up giving up.