exploration

My world's been opened to the world. I'm suffering a slight case of trepidation. It's more than I can hope to digest. Watch out as I process to bite off more than I can chew. And as my gag reflex kicks in, I realize how smooth it all is and swallow it up, ready for another taste.

What time is it?

game time

i thought you knew

Man, there are so many things that sabotage us and break us down... why do we end up doing the same to overselves and everyone around us?

It's about time to take off the blinders. There are some wicked curves ahead.

Once in a while I'll have a dream that's so ordinary I don't realize it's a dream until a while later. When I was in Chicago, I dreamt I saw someone I didn't really want to see. It took a day or two to figure out what was going on. Sometimes I wish more of the things that I remember are actually memories from random dreams.

So far, getting back into 'life' mode has been tiring. Things are still a mess. I haven't yet filed things away... in my room and in my mind. I guess tomorrow will be my catchup day.

Building bridges is difficult if you're only working from one side of the gap. I can only reach so far.

resistance makes you stronger

digging deep

I've stumbled onto something.

Why am I so speechless right now? Alright, I need to try harder. I've got more than enough to talk about. Yea, that's probably the problem.

Chicago was a real great experience. I can't wait to go back. Being back here in California feels like an extended visit... as if I've been far away from home for too long. Maybe I've got a future in the Midwest. It's all up in the air... I've got to figure out this school thing. Besides family, I'm very unattached... in that sense.

Unless...

...somehow you stumble upon these haphazard words and realize the coincidental Irvine-San Bernardino-hip hop-Los Angeles connection is worth exploring, I'm right here.

It's a long shot for sure. UC Irvine football? You still visit? Yea, I may catch most things most of the time, but once I fumble something, it's usually game over. Well, it's pretty much out of my hands.

I've been to 3 concerts in a week and a half. I'll be going to maybe 2 more in the next 2 weeks. At least one for sure. I don't know how long I can keep this up, but it's been a mind-blowing stretch for sure. Good music spoils you for sure, and I'm looking for my next fix.

My resolution to work on communication has been burnt out on the back burner. I could use some help. But I recognize that I don't need help. I know I'll be walking down some paths that have long since narrowed. You know where to look.

i can't swim, but i can fake it