I'm dizzy.

These past few days have blown by so quick, just like my dreams in the late morning hours. The week is finally coming to an end. I'm going to take a short break. It begins again soon.

Peace.

j a y f l e x: hey
j a y f l e x: i saw the geekiest thing ever today
angry kathee: share
j a y f l e x: while i was at nacs
angry kathee: yeah?
j a y f l e x: you know those alligator clips for electrical stuff?
angry kathee: yeah what happeend.
angry kathee: actually i dont' know what those are
angry kathee: but i shall pretend i know
j a y f l e x: hold on
j a y f l e x: http://www.radioshack.com/product.asp?catalog%5Fname=CTLG&product%5Fid=278-1157
j a y f l e x: u need a visual
angry kathee: frick jase
angry kathee: you're quick
angry kathee: ok
angry kathee: i'm good let's roll
j a y f l e x: so this guy had a pair
j a y f l e x: and they were about the same color as the ones in the picture
j a y f l e x: and the ends were connected on a string
j a y f l e x: around his head...
j a y f l e x: and the metal clip parts were holding up his glasses
angry kathee: i'm trying to keep from laughing outloud
angry kathee: shoot man, that IS HILARIOUS
angry kathee: did you blog that, i just snorted right now trying to hold in the laughter
j a y f l e x: i couldn't stop staring
angry kathee: my roommate is trying to study
j a y f l e x: haha
angry kathee: dang you jase. i totally can't stop laughing.
j a y f l e x: i haven't blogged it yet
j a y f l e x: man... it was supergeek supreme
angry kathee: supergeek supreme.
angry kathee: jase, you crazy dog.

I'm cold.
My alarm just went off. And I haven't slept yet.
Reading blogs.
Playing 2Pac in the headphones.
Squinting at my monitor.
Trying to write the introduction for the 5 pages I've already written.
I'm shivering.
Thinking I made things harder than they should have been.

I'm drifting...

The wind is strong these days

So many things are going on now that it's hard what to think of everything. Academics are a burden enough right now. Winter quarter. It always seems like I'm holding up, but once things start falling on my head, it's too late to do anything but find some shelter...

And yet despite the growing urgency I feel to handle my business, I feel numb. I have to remind myself all too often: action begets results. Why do my career goals make me feel so inadequate? I was walking around the vendor fair admiring some artists' work, and something started to work inside me. The artisitic side in me was tired of being ignored. I need to break out my 35mm and shoot... to let pen hit paper and let my mind loose for a moment. If only to capture a piece of my soul. I don't have the musical training, I don't have the funds to continue firing away roll after roll in my camera, I can't find the inspiration to draw whatever it is I feel, so I resort to writing. I would have tried writing a story or a book by now, but I think my symbolism is just too abstract for anyone to grasp. So for now my stories are silent...

Then I think about my world. I see so many things out of balance that I can't help but think. Things are changing. People are changing. I'm changing. I believe some things are meant to be, but only for a time. Everything has its season.

The wind is restless.

I haven't felt this sore in a really long time. That what I get for my extended workout breat. You could say it was more of a vacation from working out. Man, I'm paying for it now.

I felt so low energy today. I couldn't wake up, despite sleeping on the floor for the express purpose of waking up on time. Work was tiring, but fun. Scott and I tried some double street luge on his mountainboard. Then I went all the way down the hill by his house. I wish I had a helmet and some knee/elbow pads... then I could finally learn to skateboard. Not that I plan on skateboarding all that often, but I feel like learning new things. A mountainboard would be a lot of fun though. It's just the uphill part that sucks.

The P-ROC meeting went alright, but I didn't have enough energy to do what I really wanted to do. The soap box car derby (SBCD) idea I hatched back during welcome week fall quarter is starting to become a huge operation. We have a presentation in the works, sponsorships in negotiation (by the UCI popos... who woulda thought?), and logistics galore to take care of. ZoTurismo was "born" today. Wow, this could be big.

And then I think about all the work I have to do for my classes. Ack! There's just so much to do this week. I have to postpone doing some laundry and grocery shopping until Friday or so, when things calm down a little.

So it's coming again. Another Valentines Day. Hmmm... a good day to catch up on sleep. For me at least.

It's dawned on me that your dreams are only as real as the things you do to make them a reality.

I woke up today. Well, I didn't really wake up, I just stirred long enough to realize that I overslept and I was having weird dreams. That happened twice. I ended up being late for mass. Afterwards a few of us ate at Gina's Pizza. Damn, if I was rich I'd eat calzones more often. Then came HSO planning. Four plus hours. It's good that it doesn't seem too much like work though, otherwise I'd being going crazy. Martin and I played some racquetball and I worked out for the first time in two months. I was surprised I didn't feel like throwing up. Martin on the other hand... When we got home Mel, Martin and I battled it out on tetris for a while. I think we should have an LOG tetris tournament. That would be sweet.

But now I've got to gear myself for this week. I just checked my quiz grade for neuro lab and it's damn near the bottom. I don't get it. I thought I did a lot better. I can't screw up when the points are so easy. It doesn't help that I got the worst grade in the class on the lab practical. Damnit. Argh.

Tuesday. Asain Am paper due.
Wednesday. Lab report due.
Thursday. Bio midterm.

Help!