I haven't been having very many complete thoughts lately.

Indeed, I worked a lot this week. It's a good thing in many ways. Hopefully I won't be tempted to spend anything and stay in broke mode. I have to bury my credit cards for a while longer. Debt can get paralyzing if you don't control it. I checked my credit rating, and amazingly, it's about 715, which means it's better than average. If I stay on track I could have my cards fully paid off by next December or January.

I'm really not a pepperoni pizza person. I like vegetables. And meat. Supreme is the way to go.

It's getting harder to keep everything sorted out when I'm busy. On the other hand, when I had more time, I was just too damn lazy.

I feel like I understand the power of spoken language and I even tutor English for 5 Korean kids and pretty soon a UCI freshman, but I don't talk a lot...

I'm trying to create some distance between Christmas and materialism, and I'm doing pretty well. I'm still lacking in the spirit though. I think I know why.

The past several nights I haven't been able to get in bed before 3 am. Tomorrow I have to wake up before 8 am...

Damn, I'm still single.

The most competitive thing I've done in the past few months is play poker. I need to buy an ARC pass soon.

Is it just me or are people more inclined to do their own thing lately?

Keeping a daily photo blog isn't easy when you don't take pictures everyday.

I feel learning deprived. I think I need a few new "distractions."

I ran yesterday. I was only about 1/8 of a mile or something, but it reminded me that I should run while I still can. I'm kind of scared of a sedentary life.

No matter what I do with my hair, I usually give up and wear my hat. I need a new hat. Better yet, I want to get a new hat.

We all need contrast in our lives.

I've been working a lot this week. My dreams have been pretty crazy too. This morning is had to do something with working for Slick, putting away the drums, Francia asking for a favor, then another randomly linked dream that came immediately afterwards, involving some kind of smell experiment with a T.A. and two other students, the T.A. pulling the skin off the head of a rat with his teeth, feet, and a dark room. It makes no sense whatsoever. I hope I have more dreams like this.

Where does the time go?

this is fragile
it hurts
it feels
it breaks
it tears

but it is resilient too
bending
adapting
changing
growing

simple in it's complexity
and complex in it's simplicity

there's a great contrast to everything
if you allow yourself to see it

yet vision is only as clear as the eyes are focused

my understanding only rivals my ignorance

this is my life

I'm at a loss
of words
right now.

I may have run out
of words
to say.

Some things are beyond anything that can be said. But in this inability, creativity is born.

Right now, the feeling is blessed. Thank you. Amen.

This is turning out to be another non-stop weekend. Good night.