6:32 am.

Pretty soon I'll be leaving for campus. I wonder if it will snow on the way up to Mountain High this morning. I wonder if the sun's coming out today. I wonder if I can get my reading done while we're there. I wonder if I forgot how to snowboard. I wonder if we'll need to use those damn expensive chains I bought last night.

It's about time to cross that bridge. Yikes!

Things don't seem settled lately. Maybe it's because I never know the whole story. The reality I see is so fragmented sometimes that I can't help but feel that I'm missing something.

Besides the little moments, I don't think I've been happy in a while.

Last night, I pulled out my first gray hair. Things are changing.

7:30am to 1:00am

And ya don't stop... until now.

I'm so tired, but it feels like I'm slowly getting back on track. I need to get some sleep.

Peace.

I lay restless last night
black sky
the world was silent
but I was restless
anxious

I'm
in
too
deep

things are coming to a head
yet I can't even move
I'm frozen
I know where I want to be
and it's almost as if my future
my purpose
is within reach

I'm being pulled apart
I know all my roads
are pointing in one direction
but I can't walk two roads at once

I wonder if I can keep this together

"We'll kill some eggs.
Don't let any go over the wall.
Stick with your own kind.
That's all."

Said GP in his sleep. 3:16am.

Where the hell did that come from?

Another S.A.D.

So I lived it up a little. And stayed home all day. Except for my trip to Yoshinoya at 10pm.

Livin it up.