growing old

Time moves so quickly now, I can't comprehend how much I've wasted. But now I have a sense of urgency. Now things are different. What little control we have over the things of this life, and yet it doesn't cease to amaze me how seemingly insignificant decisions affect the course of events around us. I wish I could have understood this sooner.

shift

days like these

define who i am

Home again.

return to sender

Blessed and broken. My heart belongs to you.

the ride continues

More crazy dreams.

Starting with sometime over the weekend. People in LOG were getting together. I saw my dad playing something on the guitar, but I've never seen him play before. I was a little upset because he never showed me..

Today. I was sitting at my desk and this girl came in and was looking over my shoulder at what I was doing on the computer. All of a sudden, she started to kiss the top of my head. I didn't know to make of it, so I didn't stop her. Then she stopped and looked at me and gave me a hug. Then I remember sitting out on the balcony, but it was larger than the one at Madrona. Except the outside of the apartment looked like the house I used to live in before Madrona, and that was only a one-story house. Derrick was sleeping over in the next room before he went back to Vegas, and the sun was already rising. There were three of us outside, the girl, myself, and another person. Then a pizza guy comes up the stairs that connect to the balcony and delivers a pizza to Derrick through the sliding glass door of his room. We (the people outside) didn't think anything of it, as if people always ordered pizza at the butt crack of dawn. We went inside to say goodbye to Derrick and I remembered I had bought some jeans in Vegas but decided I didn't like them and wanted to get a refund. I handed them to Derrick and asked him to return them for me, saying they were too big for me. He was confused and said he thought that I wore a bigger size than he did.

Wake up. Half past noon.

It's a beautiful morning. Everything feels better after the rain.