random dream of the day

I was walking around a mall somewhere. It was a bougie mall, so I kept walking for a long time. I walked into a store and saw Hung, who I worked with at Olive Garden. He was the manager of the store, so he showed me around for a little bit. I noticed he had a massive mohawk. I left the store and walked around some more and ended up looking for a parking space at the Irvine Spectrum near one of the valet stations. I parked, but I wasn't driving a car. It was more of a ball-and-chain looking thing. I backed it into a 5 minute parking spot, but the valets told me not to back it in, so I turned it around. Then I had to drop off something. I was walking somewhere and I bumped into Capones (a guy from high school) walking around with Esclamydia. I ended up in a parking structure and saw them walking towards their car. Capones and Esclamydia got into a car and drove in my direction, and I saw that it was my Honda.

wtf?

just what i needed

a fresh start

to clear the clutter and the mess

and then tackle it bit by bit

i'm already worn out. goodnight

i've got

a headache
sinus pressure
frustration
an itch
sore eyes

and i'm a little impatient right now.

But it's nothing. I need to put this past me. There's a lot more to think about. And more to pray about.

you never know

And so ends the extended stayover at Scott's place. Being a parent has got to be the most stressful/rewarding thing you could ever fall into. Makes you thing about how much is so far out of your control... and how much you can do to change things.

I need some time to iron things out, but it looks like less and less of an option each time something changes. And everything is changing around me.

I'm still learning the art

something's different

i'm
following the lines
looking for the answers...

The more I try to understand, the less this makes any sense. I hear that's how it is though. Who am I to think it any different?

I'm moved to something. Constant motion, any from center, towards center again, the ebb and flow. They say eventually you'll reach equilibrium. In death. How restless I've been. I'm surprised I didn't recognize it before.

Blest and broken. There's a strange simplicity to it. Whatever complexity and contrivance we attach to this ultimately paints a much greater image of what this is.

Speak to me. I'm doing my best to hear you.

Amen.

somethings been leaving me with a strange taste in my mouth

I'm exhausted. I don't even know how to describe this.

Lately there's so much noise. I'm having trouble escaping it. My ears hurt. My head hurts. I don't know...

this too shall pass